I leave for Haiti in just under two weeks, during my spring break. I am THRILLED! It has been a while since I've taken the time to actually GO somewhere and help people through their trials. It will be a really great experience.
UPDATE!
It's been a veeerrrryy long time since I last blogged, over a month. I have so many thoughts and feelings running through me, and as I listen to this song (I Will Bow- Enter the Worship Circle) it all comes down to one thing: my faith. What do I have faith in? What is it's strength? What is its worth? For several days now I have been wrestling with God as Jacob does before crossing a river. To be honest I don't know when this will end or what river I will cross when its over, but this struggle has been significant for me. No longer am I able to get by with the knowledge of the God of the Bible that I already had. Everyday that passes I feel like there is a new and difficult question growing inside of me that I don't have the answer to. This isn't bad, this is just hard. My hope is that the Lord will bring me out of this struggle with greater strength, greater faith, and a greater love for Him, the things of Heaven and the people of this earth. Some days I don't know what I believe, and other days I think "How could I not?" I've seen and heard so much of the Lord's goodness and the reality of His presence, but how easy is it to forget all this when I encounter challenging mysterious things. Wait for the LORD; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD! (psalm 27:14) I guess that that is all that I can do. I can wait on Him to reveal Himself to me in His timing while He molds me through the fire. Meanwhile, I will continue to bow before my King, whether I see him, feel him, or hear him in these days. He is big enough to consume my doubt and give me understanding and the strength to believe.
On a lighter note, my facebook fast has been wonderful thus far. I feel like everyone should try it, for at least a few days. It's been approximately 36 days since I last logged on and I seriously have hardly missed it. Occasionally Brent will show me something on his page, but I haven't stepped a virtual foot onto my own sight or even snooped for the sake of snooping. Only about 80 days left! I can do it! (You can do it too, Sydney!!)
Well anyways, I'm back to blogging. Sorry for such a long absence. For those interested in the status of our wedding plans:
I have my dress!
We have our location!
We have our caterer!
We have our DJ!
We have our cake!
We have our wedding party!
We ALMOST have a final guest list!
Invitations are being made!
Engagement pictures have been taken and posted! (kellyhornberger.com/blog posted about 2 weeks ago)
We have a florist scheduled and tables and linens and decorations and all kinds of ideas!
So everything is going really well!
Here are the lyrics of the song I was listening to and mentioned above:
I Will Bow
Two things have I heard from the word that You have spoken
You oh God are strong, You oh God are loving
I will not be shaken
I will bow, I will Bow
Lift my eyes up from the ashes with my knees on the ground
I will bow, I will bow
Lift my eyes up from the ashes with my knees on the ground
I will bow
One thing will I seek
You and You alone
I don't have to fear, I know You are here
I will not be moved
I will bow, I will bow
Lift my eyes up from the ashes with my knees on the ground
I will bow, I will bow
Lift my eyes up from the ashes with my knees on the ground
I am pouring out my heart to You oh God
I am weak, You are strong
I am putting all my hope in You oh God
In You and to You and for You alone
I will bow, I will bow
Lift my eyes up from the ashes with my knees on the ground
I will bow, I will bow
Lift my eyes up from the ashes with my knees on the ground
I will bow, I will bow
Lift my eyes up from the ashes with my knees on the ground
I will bow, I will bow
Lift my eyes up from the ashes with my knees on the ground
I will bow, I will bow, I will bow
